Those of you who know me are undoubtedly giggling, laughing, and coughing into your fists, because the fact that I’m a few fries short of a happy meal … isn’t news to you. However … I’m beginning to worry myself. Not a good sign. Here’s why … *deep breath* … I finished CLUB JUSTICE in December, took a little break and started book two, CLUB TIES. Things were progressing nicely, and then I took a break in March to work with my editor on CJ, do the formatting for both the print and e-book versions, and then upload everything to CreateSpace and Kindle Direct Publishing. Ahhh the magic of self publishing. Here’s the problem … yes I do have a point … I can’t seem to get back to writing. I’ve been trying to pick CJ up for the last two weeks. Not only do I seemingly hate the few words I manage to peck out … but I feel that way about the entire story every time I open MS Word to work on it.
I’ve tried to look at it from every angle, talked to all my psychiatrists, i mean friends *winks*, banged my head on the desk and can’t shake the unreasonable fear locking my creative juices. *sighs* I’m over thinking, over analyzing, and WAY over stressing … well … everything. Just to give my mental breakdown further credence … this morning I printed out the ten chapters I’ve managed to complete and read over them. I love it. Yes … I’ve done lost it. I’m just waiting for the men in the white coats now. Maybe they can explain to me why words look so different on paper than they do on the computer screen. Or maybe at the very least they can give me some good drugs that will make me relax and go with the flow. LOL
If any of you have suffered such a writer’s meltdown … please share so I don’t feel so alone. If not, then I appreciate your snickers … err … prayers.
Love & Creativity!